Breathless (Shayne Ward)

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are

Chorus

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are

[Chorus]

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

[Chorus 2x]

Over You (Daughtry)

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Your Guardian Angel (The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus)

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Comfort Zone

Each one of us is looking for a comfort zone in life especially when we're getting older. But in this information age and very competitive, we need to upgrade ourselves to meet current and future challenges, otherwise we would left behind.

I happened to take up a project to modify/patch an application. User requirements need major overhaul of the system. After about four (4) weeks of labour, I was happy to hand-over my work. Of course to collect what I suppose to earn.

I discussed the changes casually with my client, how it's being implemented and limitations. I told them what the difficulties were in implementing the new requirements. That was the time I realized that the person supposedly doing the modification was not comfortable doing it.

He was already comfortable with all the codes modifying it from time to time. Discussing with him how the modification should be done, I heard all 101 reasons not to. So since they're my clients, then I have to circumvent and more diplomatic on discussing things like it.

Having the comfort zone, he became reluctant on implementing any modification that may affect the whole system. No wonder they engaged a third-party to make the changes.

Well, if they're not that reluctant then I couldn't make extra money.

GPs (General Practitioners)

I buy medicines over the counter or ask the pharmacist on-duty for medication such as colds and fever. Then I just rest at home to gain back my health.

I only see a doctor when I feel something is wrong with my body. Recently I went to see a doctor due to running nose. Of course, the doctor asked the obvious question, and I had to tell him what's wrong with me.

Usually doctors will measure the blood pressure, and use the stethoscope to hear the sound from our body.

What really annoyed me was the way the doctor used the stethoscope. To listen for a sound inside a body is for the scope to be stationed in one part of the body and listen carefully for a particular sound. But seems like GPs tend to keep the scope moving from one place to another. I thought that the scope didn't even stopped moving in a second. How can a GP diagnose properly if he didn't even hear any sound from your body?

I rarely see a doctor, so I wouldn't know if this is just for this particular doctor, or everybody is just doing this way. I'm not a doctor, but my logic tells me that in order to pick out the sound for symptoms you have to pause the scope in a particular place and ask the patient to do a deep breath. At least that's what I experienced when our school physicians did a physical checkup.

Well, I just hope that this type of GP is rare, and that others give a good professional service to their paying patients.

Fierce & Mean???

I got a call from one of our clients to discuss and understand some of their operations and system reports.

I noticed that she sounded nervous. I told her to calm down, and asked why she's so nervous. The answer was "coz you are fierce and mean"!!!

I was quite for few seconds weighing how to react and answer to her comment.

Eventually I decided not to react and say anything about the comment, instead tried to discuss and answer her queries about the system. In doing so, I may have avoided disaster and becoming meaner to her. Or I may have averted adding insult to injury.

Sometimes we may need to be fierce and mean for some reasons.

When we were in school and becoming/acting stupid, teachers/professors used different ways to get our attention and point out our stupidity. Their eyes grew bigger and wider. Words became harsher, and voice sounded more imposing than ever.

Well, I employed harsher words and made my voice more imposing. That's the best thing to do when talking to stupid people and can't even see them when you talk to them. It's a lot better to talk face-to-face so we can understand the visual cues.

You may wonder what made some people stupid!

In this context, the people asked the same question for a number of times, and somehow they can't grasp things being discussed. They have their own bosses that told them what to do, yet they call support hotline to understand what they're boss wanted them to accomplish!

Can't they ask their boss about their doubts? Aren't these acts stupidity?

Being fierce and mean sometimes are justifiable...

Opportunity

Everyone is always in a look out for opportunity. It could be a job, business or change of career path or anything that catches one's fancy. The goal for the opportunity is for one's success or advancement.

Often, the opportunity is within our reach, but ironically most people don't see it or simply just ignore it.

Not seeing the opportunity could be attributed to goals not exactly set. Put it simply, the person is still in doubt. He/she can only recognize it when goals or priorities for success becomes clearer. When it's recognized, sometimes it's a little too late.

Ignoring opportunity could have various reasons. The person maybe too comfortable of his current state, or could be reluctant to grab the opportunity for some reasons. Reluctance can be summarized in one word, fear! Whatever it is, it's the hurdle the person needs to overcome to grab a very good opportunity.

When we were kids, I remembered that when opportunist word is used, it's analogous to being a bad person. We're supposed to be fair and square to everyone.

In real world, I guess businessmen are opportunists!

Whenever and wherever there's a crisis, business-minded people take advantage of the situation. Their goal is to make money out of the situation. Unfortunately it becomes a norm and everyone just accept it.

Why won't we call these people opportunists instead of businessmen? Just thinking...

Pacman Fever

The first time I heard people talking about Pacman, I thought they're referring to the arcade game that gobble up everything on its way... sort of.

Wrong!

Pacman is a boxer that people talk about. He's so good that he knocked out his every opponent. I don't really follow things about him, but seems like everyone is talking about him.

Last Sunday, he had a fight in Las Vegas, and Philippines was reported to stand still with zero crime rate. Everyone was glued to their tv sets or some venues that people can watch him fight.

I was caught with the fever!!!

Not to be outdone, I checked the internet if I can watch the fight online. There's no pay-per-view channel in the country I'm in, at least none that I know of, so I resorted to internet.

Pacland is a known site dedicated to the boxer, and I checked it out. Once in a while it's inaccessible due to heavy traffic, and even redirected the traffic to a temporary server just to keep up and running.

Some people posted their YM addresses to let others watch the fight through webcam. hmmm... Sounds everyone was so desperate to watched the fight.

Some radio stations can't even account the fight blow-by-blow due to broadcast licensing.

Sopcast was to the rescue! I managed to watched the live fight through it. There were two channels broadcasting online, and streaming was very good.

The fight was good, however, the anticipation of so much "fireworks" was so high that the action so far didn't meet what was expected.

Satisfaction of watching the fight live is better, rather than depend on the news and some commentaries.

Into the Fire (13 Senses)

Come on, come on
Put your hands into the fire
Explain, explain
As I turn and meet the power
This time, This time
Turning white and senses dire
Pull up, pull up
From one extreme to another

From the summer to the spring
From the mountain to the air
From Samaritan to sin
And it’s waiting on the end

Come on, come on
Put your hands into the fire
Explain, explain
As I turn and meet the power
This time, This time
Turning white and sense dire
Pull up, pull up
From one extreme to another

From the summer to the spring
From the mountain to the air
From Samaritan to sin
And it’s waiting on the end

and now I’m alone I’m looking out
I’m looking in, way down
The lights are dim
and now I’m alone I’m looking out
I’m looking in, way down
The lights are dim

Ooooh

Come on, come on
Put your hands into the fire
Come on, come on

Somewhere Only We Know (Keane)

I walked across an empty land,
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand.
I felt the earth beneath my feet,
Sat by the river and it made me complete.
Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

I came across a fallen tree,
I felt the branches; are they looking at me?
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.
SO if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know.

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So, tell me when you gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.
SO if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, so why don't we go,

Hmmm yeahh,

This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know
Somewhere only we know.

Looking Through Your Eyes (Leann Rimes)

Look at the sky
Tell me what do you see
Just close your eyes
And describe it to me
The heavens are sparkling
With starlight tonight
That's what I see
Through your eyes

I see the heavens
Each time that you smile
I hear your heartbeat
Just go on for miles
And suddenly I know
My life is worth while
That's what I see
Through your eyes

Chorus:
Here in the night
I see the sun
Here in the dark
Our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands
We can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes

I look at myself
And instead I see us
Whoever I am now
It feels like enough
And I see a girl
Who is learning to trust
That's who I see through your eyes

(Chorus)

And there are some things we don't know
Sometimes a heart just needs to go
And there is so much that I'll remember
Underneath the open sky with you forever

(chrous)

i see a night i wish could last forever
i see a world we're meant to see together
and it is so much more than i remember
more than i remember
more than i have ever known

(chorus)

looking through your eyes

I Will Remember You (Sarah McClachlan)

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories

Never Had A Dream Come True (S Lub 7)

Everybody’s got something, they had to leave behind,
One regret from yesterday, that just seems to grow with time,
There’s no use looking back, or wondering, (or wondering),
How it could be now, or might have been, (or might have been),
All this I know, but still I can’t find ways to let you go,

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I’ve moved on
You’ll always be my baby,
I never found the words to say
You’re the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you.

Somewhere in my memory I’ve lost all sense of time,
And tomorrow can never be cause yesterday is all that fills my mind,
There’s no use looking back, or wondering (or wondering),
How it should be now, or might have been (or might have been),
Oh this I know but still I can’t find ways to let you go,

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I’ve moved on
You’ll always be my baby,
I never found the words to say
You’re the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

You’ll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will oh baby,
You’ll always be the one I know I’ll never forget,
There’s no use looking back or wondering, (or wondering),
Because love is a strange and funny thing, (and funny thing),
No matter how I try and try I just can’t say goodbye, no no no no.

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I’ve moved on
You’ll always be my baby,
I never found the words to say, (never found the words to say),
You’re the one I think about each day, (you’re the one I think about each day),
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be...
A part of me will always be with you, oooohhh.

Life in Disguise (The Slip)

Well the world is only a stage
And I'm just a man
With a sound caught in his throat
And a pick in his hand
But when the song comes tumbling out you understand
There's no great demand

Well it's there under your breath, behind your eyes
And you don't have to say nothing cause I realize
That everything somehow in someway eventually dies
It's life in disguise

It's your room and your board and your fireside
It's a shell that's been washed by a million tides
And if you're there you can see just how bright it shines

When there's nobody left in your heart, left in your head
When the whole world has packed up in shadows and left you for dead
When you can't fake a smile and you just can't get out of your bed
When the people you led turn to you looking so hungry and bare
And you were the one that had brought them there
And all you can do is just stare at your hands and whisper my name

Elenore Cecil Robert and Molly
Coco Rudy Maxwell wherever you are
Elenore Cecil Robert and Molly
Coco Rudy Maxwell wherever you are

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That Thing You Do (The Wonders)

You, doing that thing you do
Breakin' my heart into a million pieces
Like you always do
And you, don't mean to be cruel
You never even knew, about the heartache
I've been going through
And I try and try to forget you girl
But it's just so hard to do
Everytime you do that thing you do

And I, know all the games you play
And I'm gonna find a way to let you know that,
You'll be mine someday
'Cause we, could be happy can't you see
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you
And keep you here with me

Cause I try and try to forget you girl
But it's just so hard to do
Everytime you do that thing you do

I don't ask a lot (I don't ask a lot)
But I know one thing for sure (Know one thing for sure)
It's the love that I haven't got girl
And I just can't take it anymore
(Woah!!)

Cause we, could be happy can't you see
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you
And keep you here with me

Cause it hurts me so just to see you go
Around with someone new
And if I know you you're doing that thing
Everyday just doing that thing
I can't take you doing that thing you do

Another Frustrating Day

When I woke up today, I felt very refreshed maybe because it's a beautiful sunny day. I was hoping that it will continue the rest of the day.

I received an email from the person which I expected to clear everything that caused some frustration. Unfortunately, some concerned persons still not persuaded.

My day is ruined!

They thought they were the experts, but then again when you asked what exactly in their mind, and how they're going to go about it, there are no definite answers. All i can hear was that's what i think!!!

Not good enough! If people think they can do and think better, they might as well be able to articulate and explain. Otherwise, they're just trying to get some ideas from other people that may come out during the discussion and argument.

The most frustrating part was people don't get it!!! Or well, they just play dumb!!!

When it comes to money people are very quick to jump into the wagon, but doing the dirty job people will just walk away! There's no easy way to get that big chunk of money if you don't do the dirty job!!!

Beautiful Monday Morning

Waking up a little bit late today, and looking out at the window I feel refreshed. It's a bright and beautiful Monday morning!

I feel like going back to sleep, but I guess need to get up and work.

hmmm... I got this Monday blues again. :( The beautiful sunlight just offset this negative feeling...

A Lazy Saturday

It's really a lazy Saturday that I literally slept the whole morning. Just after past 1PM, my sleep was interrupted by a client's call, unfortunately he's calling and asking the wrong person. I don't know if I want to get angry at or thankful to him, but basically I felt irritated by the disturbance.

Since I can't sleep back, I just took a very hot shower and grab some food.

I don't want to do anything today even going out or doing laundry, so I need to keep my self busy.

After booting up the computer and thinking what to do, I choose some music to play from the library and think of compiling the selection just for fun. After compilation, I played it and surprisingly it seems it goes with my mood. hmmm...

I uploaded one of the pictures to my Picasa album, and just noticed that Google has new feature which is mapping the picture locations. I tried it, and found out that it's interesting to map those pictures. Mapping is very smooth and easy to use. Also, it's easy to look at the mapped places through satellite images or through Google earth.... You can see my sample album, and click view album map...

Seems like I want to snap more pictures this time... hahaha...

Kanlungan (Noel Cabangon)

Chorus:
Pana-panahon ang pagkakataon
Maibabalik ba ang kahapon?

Natatandaan mo pa ba
Nang tayong dal'wa ang unang nagkita?
Panahon ng kamusmusan
Sa piling ng mga bulaklak at halaman
Doon tayong nagsimulang
Mangarap at tumula

Natatandaan mo pa ba
Inukit kong puso sa punong mangga
At ang inalay kong gumamela
Magkahawak-kamay sa dalampasigan
Malayang tulad ng mga ibon
Ang gunita ng ating kahapon

Refrain 1:
Ang mga puno't halaman
Ay kabiyak ng ating gunita
Sa paglipas ng panahon
Bakit kailangan ding lumisan?

[Repeat Chorus]

Ngayon ikaw ay nagbalik
At tulad ko rin ang iyong pananabik
Makita ang dating kanlungan
Tahanan ng ating tula at pangarap
Ngayon ay naglaho na
Saan hahanapin pa?

Refrain 2:
Lumilipas ang panahon
Kabiyak ng ating gunita
Ang mga puno't halaman
Bakit kailangang lumisan?

[Repeat Chorus]
[Repeat Refrain 2]
[Repeat Chorus]

When can we declare ourselves successful in life?

How many of us will ask such question?

Others may think that there's no point living when we declare ourself successful in life. There are lots of books suggesting on how to be successful in life. Yet, we have difficulties to recognize our own successful life, or won't even know we have reached such goal.

I grew up in a rural area, and we were told that we need to finish our studies, get some degrees and set some goals to be somebody someday. Is that goal defines success? Most likely, but not necessarily defining successful life.

After graduation, each one will look for a job to fend himself and become independent. Pursuit a career which someone may think suitable and can bring to the next level. In the process, someone may change career path to achieve the goal being set.

Back in my home town, most of us have very simple goal. Study hard, graduate and get some degree, then you can find work easily and be successful. Sounds easy! But in this real world, especially this information age, it's not as simple as it seems. The world is shrinking, and even the remotest place is affected by this advancement.

Each person has his own set of criteria to determine his own success. Though others think that a person is already successful, the concerned individual usually determines his own success.

As the person getting older, the measure of success is up. At times, we set different goals, achieved each one, then move to achieve a higher level. Therefore, we usually don't count successes we made earlier in life. And we may feel that we haven't achieved anything. It always boils down to contentment.

Once a person reaches his twilight years, then he'll start to ponder if he has made a successful life. He'll look back at the past years, the best and worst times and assess his achievements...

Does it mean I'm already in my twilight years? hmmm... just thinking...

So when to declare? That's up to the individual...

The Reason (Hoobastank)

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Talking to a Machine

I recently fixed a computer with faulty hard disk drive. The only solution to make it work was to replace the hard drive, and reload all the applications starting from Windows operating system.

Reloading of Windows was thought to be a breeze coz everything was available. But then activating Windows or registering it to Microsoft through internet surprised me. After entering serial numbers, system prompted me for new activation numbers which also showed a phone number to call.

An answering machine picked up my call. I think most of us, oriental people, don't like to talk to machine, even we refuse or hesitant to leave a message to a voice mail. Yet, I got this dilemma if I continue talking to the machine.

I chose to talk to the machine just to get things done and over with the task on hand. The machine was quite good, and can even recognize my none english-speaking heavy accented voice. I was relieved that a person's voice took over at the other end to get the information I wanted.

Really talking to the machine was a bit annoying, but getting things done was the bottom line. So, I had no choice but to communicate through it.

Different Actors, Same Result

It's been three months now when the company changed its owner. I was looking forward for lots of changes and activities as promised. Yet I'm still waiting for such things to happen.

After so much time waiting, it's clearer to me that company's direction will have the same result as the previous one except that the current actors are different. Any window dressing won't help. As time goes by, people's true color will always come out.

Bottom line is to manage people properly to get results. If everyone just talk without action, then everybody is just dreaming. If even a very simple task just to get the Yes or No from a client can't be done, then bigger task or complex task will surely fail.

Like most great things, usually everything starts small. I guess people has to learn this lesson...

What makes a good salesman?

I work as a technical guy and also coordinate with salesmen. Doing sales technical support, I have the opportunity to observe salesmen working when I go to meetings with them.

At times, I wonder why other salesmen can make and close deals compared to others. Why would these salesmen can close that deal? This question always flash in my mind when I go for meeting.

I sort of conclude that to be a good salesman, someone has to have some qualities:
1. Committed. This means that the person has conviction to make sales, not just for the sake of selling because that's his job, but commit himself to close the deal. I often went with salesmen and realized that they're not just ready to close the deal, but they talk uncommitted.

2. Understanding of the product. The person must have at least 80% knowledge of the overall product. If he doesn't even know his own product, how would the buyer expect to know the product?!

3. Understanding of market segment. He must know the market trend and his target segment, otherwise he'll be just talking to people nonsense.

4. Common sense. A factor that everyone has supposed to have, unfortunately common sense is not common after all.

5. Persuasive. He must be able to convince people. This quality usually depends on the other qualities stated above.

6. Honest. He can't promise heaven and earth to the potential buyer. He should be honest enough to tell people that the product has limitations. Every product has limitations, so it's not bad to tell the truth.

When I had a discussion with the boss few days back, I realized that they're putting the wrong sales people. These guys in sales post don't even have common sense to know what they're exactly supposed to do!!! They're just good at talking! No action , talk only (NATO) people! What a disappointment!!!

Be Evil???

I just went to one of our clients to fix some network connectivity issue. Earlier on, I instructed them to check the cables to make sure everything is intact and connected. Surely, they told me everything was connected.

It's disappointing to learn that these people just say anyhow, yet they never really properly checked. True to my suspicion, the cable was really disconnected.

Then they asked another question which every application in the workstation can print except for a particular one. I informed them that they have to call the application's vendor to fix the issue coz it's nothing to do with the printer.

My principle is to help people whenever I can. If these people can't even help me to get the information to help them out, why should I do it for them? It's against my principle though I think I better learn to be evil! Can I call this act evil?!

If people don't appreciate your effort and even make your life more difficult, then might as well let them resolve their own problem. I would only bother to do things within the job scope!

Lesson: Learn to be evil.

A Reminder???

It's been three months since I transferred to a new place, and I never did exercise as I used to do except doing some stretching and sit ups. Feel like my body is getting heavier, and seems getting older... hahaha.. Who's not getting older, anyway? :P

Well, I just started running again and find it very refreshing. I may need to do it everyday to get back in shape... hmm... The most difficult part is to start at the first few days, otherwise I'll just go back to the old ways...

Hopefully this write up will remind me of one of my TODOs... :D

What's in history?

History is a record of past events. In modern times, different formats like writing, pictures, sounds and videos, but the olden days often it was passed orally or written by historians.

History helps us understand and learn things. It helps us develop ways to improve things based on the historical data, or avoid the pitfalls.

It's discouraging to know some people who don't want to review the history. Discussing such detail doesn't mean you want to criticize people. It's meant to understand the whole situation, and use it as reference.

If people will just forget the history and start all over again, then they're repeating history. Meaning these people are trying to do same things as the previous people did. Trial and error!!!

History serves as a guideline to build a blueprint for things to be done.

Lesson: Learn from the past.

On Detective Works

Hearing the word detective, we usually associate it with the police. What we don't realize that often we do our own detective works everyday. It's not as complex as the police investigation, but still we do it.

Detective work is synonymous to investigation. It entails gathering of data, proof and come up with the conclusion. Scientists, engineers and/or any other individual usually have to do some investigation.

Once a person hits a problem to achieve his goal, he will start investigating on ways to overcome the obstacle. He would start gathering data, come up with the necessary materials and eventually achieve his goal.

Common factors to achieve or wrap up an investigation: patience, persistence and perspiration.

On Job Responsibility

How many people do you think really take on job responsibility?

This is a very broad question and dependent on each individual. We may think that everyone is taking responsibility on things they do. Some (or would I say rare?!) are very serious on their job responsibility. Some (majority?!!!) are don't-cares!!! I find the second group very annoying.

There's a new taxation law implemented start of this month. Two weeks or earlier before the changes, emails were already circulated on procedures on things to be done. When implementation time comes, it's amazing that second group can still tell you they don't know anything. Right on your face!!!

Taking one step backward, and try to analyze further seems like you can see more don't-care people. More are just interested in getting their pay at the end of month. These people work harder the last few days of the month, and can take the rest of the days as their leisure time. Sounds like they're club members!!!

Hmm... I guess that's how it works around here....

Last Week of Jun 2007

It was a busy week going to the end of June 2007. I thought I had planned things to do from what to accomplish, the activities and the timing. Somehow a lot of distractions/things that were not intended to be done that caused the schedule went haywire.

Lots of activities is good, however, things disrupted due to some bozos were really annoying. Luckily I had two less bozos recently. It would be stressful these coming days coz I'll become one-man-army, but it's better than cleaning up other people's mess.

One more annoying bozo is still around, but who cares!!! Maybe I'll try to act bozo so I can get rid of him too... hahaha....




Definition: bozo - a man who is a stupid incompetent fool

Til We Ain't Strangers AnyMore (Bon Jovi)

It might be hard to be lovers
But it's harder to be friends
Baby pull down the covers
It's time you let me in
Maybe light a couple candles
I'll just go ahead and lock the door
If you just talk to me baby
Till we ain't strangers anymore

Lay your head on my pillow
I sit beside you on the bed
Don't you think it's time we say
Some things we haven't said
It ain't too late to get back to that place
Back to where, we thought it was before
Why don't you look at me
Till we ain't strangers anymore

Sometimes it's hard to love me
Sometimes it's hard to love you too
I know it's hard believing
That love can pull us through
It would be so easy
To live your life
With one foot out the door
Just hold me baby
Till we ain't strangers anymore

It's hard to find forgiveness
When we just turn out the lights
It's hard to say you're sorry
When you can't turn off the light
It would be so easy
To spend your whole damn life
Just keeping strong
So lets get down to it baby
There ain't no need to lie

Tell me who you think you see
When you look into my eyes
Lets put our two hearts back together
And leave the broken pieces on the floor
Make love with me baby
Till we ain't strangers anymore

We're not strangers anymore
We're not strangers
We're not strangers anymore

World's First Cash Dispenser

Have you ever wondered when the first cash dispenser was installed?

I chanced upon this BBCNews article about the first cash dispenser. It was first installed last 27 June 1967. The article even stated the reason it used four-digit number pin instead of six digits.

It's an amazing invention. It was invented earlier than I expected....

Btw, the inventor's name is John Shepherd-Barron.

Frustrating Language

I spoke different dialect, and prefer to speak English whenever I'm outside of our country. It's frustrating that I got limited vocabulary with our national language. Worst, you can't do anything for someone who asked for help with regards to national language.

The only way to learn this language is to speak with other people. Unfortunately, conversational vocabulary is also limited, and not applicable to what I want to achieve. Maybe it's time to read some materials dedicated for this language, otherwise I'll just keep on getting frustrated. sigh...

How to learn this crap?!!! Maybe I'm just very disappointed at this time...

Thinking as Entrepreneur

Technical people have different mindset as that of entrepreneurs. The fields are totally different. And I'm thinking of becoming an entrepreneur for quite sometime now. I thought it would be nice to break out from modern slavery.

I've discussed this subject matter with a best friend, and her inputs were quite invaluable. She's most exposed to this matter than I do. I would have thought differently without her inputs. It was discussed more on general terms, though I would have preferred to discuss it with her in details, but I felt pai sei.

I also contacted a very good resource person which I thought he might have some experience. He's my dad! Yes. I have to talk to him for an hour in a long distance call. But the cost is worth it.

After discussing with Dad the details, the pros & cons, the terminologies used and some formula I found that it's not as straight forward being entrepreneur. The subject matter becomes more complex when money is involved. Financial statement, profit and loss subjects made my mind whirling.

Not that I don't understand! I thought I've studied and understand all these things. But when I think like entrepreneur and having investors in mind, strategies and the best way to move forward, it's totally different from studying. I need to cover almost all things that I can think of to make things feasible. Getting your hands dirty changes your mindset compared to all in theory.

It's best to think these things over and over and over until everything is clear. But definitely I'll give it a shot. We'll see the next few days... The ball is in my court, and I have to play with it...

I'll keep my fingers crossed...

Necessary Documentation

Friday, June 22: Client's request status is in limbo. I literally refused to do the task because maintenance is not clear, therefore it's not mandatory to deliver the goods.

I asked the new person in-charged to show me the scope of the job, unfortunately she can't show any document. According to her, the previous employee didn't have it in a file.

Bingo!!!

My suspicion is confirmed that the person is not really doing the job. All wayang!!! No wonder when I tried to discuss those matters last time, they're illusive! They didn't have straight answers.

Documentation is always necessary when dealing in business. Verbal agreement sometimes work, but when there's a change of hand, definitely it will be difficult to implement what was verbally agreed.

I also thought that people who were taking over are very thorough. At least that's the feedback given to me. hmmm... These new guys were duped by the gal. Good at sweet talk, but not in deed.

I guess I need to be more careful with these guys. Most likely these are worse the previous ones... Just thinking....

All Messed Up (Breaking Point)

I hope I never wake up
I dream about you all the time now
And I don't wanna face
Another night without you here
Someday, someway, somehow
We will be together again
You know I've always wanted
Just to feel the touch of your love
You know I've always hated
Knowing how far apart we are
Someday, someway, somehow
We will be together again
I just want you to know

[CHORUS:]
Baby I'm all messed up in you
You're far away
But you're here with me
Baby I'm all messed up in you
You're all I need
My everything

Every night i wake up
Hoping that I'll find you here and
There's not a day that goes by
I don't think about your smile
Someday, someway, somehow
We will be together again
I just want you to know

[CHORUS]

And I know that we will find a way
To be together someday
And I promise you that I won't leave
I'll be here forever

[CHORUS]

I want you
I need you
I'm lost here without you
I'm all messed up in you
I hope i never wake up
I dream about you all the time now.

Purpose of Meeting

People usually go for meeting to discuss issues and clarify things out. Unfortunately, there are bozos will just go to meeting unprepared just for the sake of having a meeting. End result, issues are still hanging, and they just wasted time!

When asked the outcome and conclusion regarding the issues, there's no single concrete answer! And still they still need to check some information. Really idiots!!!

Worst is they want me to go for the meeting and discuss the issues. Meeting again!!! These are useless idiots!

No wonder, they can fill pressure from the bosses.

Wayang wayang!!! These are the real pretenders!!

Issues in Computer Applications

We can find any type of computer applications from games to sophisticated application. Basically applications are for entertainment and tools to make us more efficient and need only little time to complete a particular task.

Sometimes it's frustrating to see some utility applications that take so much time to finish. When checking the codes, we can realize that coding caused the problem. Instead of letting the computer do the job, the programmer did the computer's job.

Often we heard programmers saying that the issues were due to old computer and can't process as much data as needed. In actual fact, it's the logic building and implementation are the issue.

These so called programmers are not really programmers by standard. They just thought they can instruct CPUs, and teach computers to think the way they think, then they are already programmers.

When can these people learn?!

Just asking...

What's In a Picture?

Everyday we see different pictures anywhere we go. It is used as a record on any event that we thought help us remember things. Whether it's a happy, sad or tragic moment. Anything that we would like to cherish and look back in the future.

Even in computers, we used images (pictures) to represent a particular function or objects coz as human beings we used to seeing objects rather than reading words. Icons representation in computers are preferred and seen as user-friendly compared to text-based information.

There is more than recording on events or locations. Different shapes and colors comprise a picture, but it may reveal things that we like, our mood & character and personality.

Most of us get excited or curious when we see somebody changed a picture that represent himself/herself. It's human nature! Often, speculation is drawn when we see something different, though it would be good to understand the premise of such changes. Otherwise, we may come up with the wrong conclusion. That's make life exciting, isn't it?

A picture paints a thousand words sums it all....

Stagnant Time!!!

It's just about five (5) days since I came back to work, but it seems the time is stagnant. Feel like I've been here for years without break, but the fact is that I just resumed work.

Stagnant time makes you feel like five years older than yesterday.... (sigh)

Maybe it's time to change something. But what is it? Maybe I'm too lost that cause the time to stop...

As the saying goes, "Idle Time is the Devil's Workshop"...

Rediscovering Self

In life, we chose some path that we thought it's the best to follow. Criteria vary from person to person. And path maybe chosen based on the person's perspective at the moment in time.

There are things that we ought to know, but opted not to know. For simplicity?! Or really just opted not to know at all?!!! I suppose it's the latter.

Well, simplicity is the best and could be a bliss. Not everyone will agree though. In this world that we live in, at times we would like to have the best. Who doesn't want the best?

But when we factor in people around us, things become complex, and simplicity diminishes if not really extinguished. This would be the time to think that we should have opted to know things that we ought to know.

Recognizing such reality often we need an angel to show us the way when we get lost. I guess I'm lucky to meet such angel. :D

Rediscovering self feels very refreshing. It's hard to describe a different feeling when you rediscover yourself.

Just remember that an angel will always come to guide and show us the way...

Inspiration

Each one of us, at least once, seek something to inspire us in our daily life. We try to make the most out of anything to enjoy. We do things that we thought may make us happy. We pursue things and dreams, and hoping and trying to achieve such things.

But sometimes when we pause, look back and think at times we ask "So what have I achieved?". Then we start thinking of a lot of things and different things. A lot of questions come into our mind, and sometimes everything seems confusing.

Adding to confusion maybe the environment and people surrounding us. Expectation from others may add weight to it. It's easier not to give in to these pressure of expectations. But when people start to emulate or make us a role model, pressure is heavier from within. We may not want to be somebody's model, but we can't prevent others to make us to be their model.

We become lost when we have a lot things in mind. So many things that may have happened that we wish it never happened at all. It's overwhelming!!!

Lost!!!

Inspiration! We need it to make everything back to what we wanna be, and where we gonna be!

Thanks to people that bring us inspiration. Someone may inspire us to help and see things clearly and show us the path that we've been seeking for.

Beauty, brain, honesty & frankness make everything perfect and irresistible and so beautiful.

Well, love is the best inspiration!!!

Stop Crying Your Heart Out (Oasis)

Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone

May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change
What's been and gone

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

Earth and the Human Race

"It was the only color we could see in the universe. ... "We're living on a tiny little dust mote in left field on a rather insignificant galaxy. And basically this is it for humans. It strikes me that it's a shame that we're squabbling over oil and borders." (Taken from www.washingtonpost.com)

Recently we can read and hear discussions about global warming. There are suggestions on how to tackle this dilemma, however, there's not an exact solution. Even solution like tree planting (complement solution) has some setback due to some warnings that it may not be effective.

No matter what the suggested solutions are, most likely global warming will just be slowed down, but won't be resolved. The rate of global warming will be proportionate that of peoples' eagerness to advance our technologies and raise the comfort of living.

This issue of global warming can be viewed as unfair to third world countries in which people even have difficulty earning a living. Industrial nations are the major contributors to carbon dioxide, and they may need to take actions.

Carbon taxation is the suggested way of reducing carbon emission. But will itl help?! Most likely not coz rich nations can afford to buy and pay such hefty price just to maintain their positions in the industry.

Human race has made destruction to earth that seems impossible to reverse its effect.

We just hope that it's not too late to resolve this problem. And we'll keep our fingers crossed... Earth as far as we know is the only place that human beings can live... for now...

Tuldok (Asin)

Ang tuldok ay may salaysay at may kahulugan
The dot has a story and meaning
Na dapat mapansin at maintindihan
That needs to be noticed and understood
Kahit sino ka man ay dapat malaman
Whoever you are, it must be known
Na dito sa mundo ikaw ay tuldok lang
That in this world you're just a dot

Kahit na ang araw sa kalangitan
Even the sun in the heavens
Siya ay tuldok lamang sa kalawakan
It's just a dot in the universe
Lahat ng bagay ay tuldok ang pinanggalingan
All things started from the dot
At kung masdang mabuti, tuldok ang uuwian
And if looked closely, to dot it returns.

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Tingnan mong mabuti ang 'sang katauhan
Look closely at the peoples
Maraming nag-aaway, tuldok lang ang dahilan
Many quarreled just due to a dot
Sa aking nakita, ako'y natawa lang
Of what I've seen, I laughed
'Pagkat ang nangyayari'y malaking kahibangan
Because what happened was a craziness

Kaya wala kang dapat na ipagmayabang
Therefore, you got nothing to be proud of
Na ikaw ay mautak at maraming alam
That you're brainy and knowledgeable
Dahil kung susuriin at ating iisipin
Because if we scrutinize and think about it
Katulad ng lahat, ikaw ay tuldok rin
Just like the rest, you're just a dot

Samson (Regina Spektor) You Are My Sweetest Downfall

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the stars came fallin' on our heads
But they're just old light, they're just old light
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
Told me I was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors in the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
And kissed me 'til the mornin' light, the mornin' light
And he kissed me 'til the mornin' light

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonderbread and went right back to bed
Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one
And history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first

Facade

Facade is defined as a superficial appearance or illusion of something, or an artificial or deceptive front.

It's the facade we're seeing on people especially those that maybe in trouble but don't want to show it outright. Different personalities have different ways of portraying themselves. And each one has his/her own reasons in doing so. Maybe the obvious reason is that a person doesn't want to show the real thing.

Selfishness?!

If referring to problem or not a good thing, first analysis it may not be selfishness. Usually we clean up our own shit, and not to bother others to help the cleaning.

Often we associate selfishness with good things. As human beings it's our tendency to keep good things as we can. That's selfishness!!!

We may thought that by not sharing problem or bad things, we're protecting our friends from it. As if we're the heroes trying to save the world.

But taking a second look, the act of protecting others becomes selfishness!!! That's when we consider our friends' emotions. Friends are there to help and share the burden. Often we ignore them coz we're afraid that they'll get hurt somehow.

A true friend can see through behind the facade, no matter how good it is.

It's ironic and painful to go through the process. It could have been better if the facade was not put up in the first place.

The GA Series

The first time I watched GA series, the story line caught my attention. However I concentrated on doing something else, and thought of watching it again if I have the chance.

A very good friend so interested in GA series lent the DVDs that she has. Once I got hold of the copies, I watched it till wee hours and can't get enough of it.

What made the series ticked with me?!

The story line for each episode is very simple, however, it touched me. As if you were watching yourself captured in film. There's a weird feeling watching the show. Deja vu!!! At times parallelism could be in the scenario or the character him/herself.

Why not getting enough of it?!!!

Well there are situations that you think there's a solution to the dilemma being presented, however in the end it's hanging. Reality dictates that too often they live happily ever after thing is not the ending. Life sometimes is a struggle depending on how we deal with situations. And the series itself presented what life is all about...

I'm looking forward to watch the next episodes...

"I can be a surgeon and committed at the same time"... I associated myself to this character...

Do I Make You Proud (Taylor Hicks)

I've never been
The one to raise my hand
That was not me
And now that's who I am
Because of you
I am standing tall
My heart is full
Of endless gratitude
You were the one
The one to guide me through
Now I can see
And I believe
It's only just beginning

[Chorus:]
This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud

I guess I've learned
To question is to grow,
That you still have faith,
Is all I need to know,
I've learned to love,
My selfish part of me,
And I've learned to
Walk on the road I believe.

Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved
To be loved
Everybody need to rise on
Everybody needs to be loved, to be loved

[Chorus:]
This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you, do I make you proud
This is what we dream about
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
Do I make you proud

Just to Feel that Way (Taylor Hicks)

I feel you letting go
Holding on, caught in between
Could you risk the pain
Take the chance your heart might bleed
Just to feel that way

Can't keep running in circles
I'm standing right here
Could you rewrite the story
But trade all the tears
Oh it's not too late to feel that way

Take a walk on the wire
I won't let you go
We'll follow the streetlights
Down this jagged road
We'll break it all open
Finding our way
We might end up broken and wounded
But baby it's worth it
for even one day
Just to feel that way

Let this moment unravel
and we'll be alright
The world might be gone tomorrow
But we're here tonight
Oh it's not too late just to feel that way
Let's walk on the wire
I won't let you go
We'll follow the streetlights
Down this jagged road
We'll break it all open
Finding our way
We might end up broken and wounded
But baby it's worth it
For even one day

Just to fall apart
I don't care
I'm not going anywhere
Without you being here by my side
Yeah I just don't feel right
We'll follow the streetlights

Let's walk on the wire
I won't let you go
We'll follow the streetlights
Down this jagged road
We'll break it all open
Finding our way
We might end up broken and wounded
But baby it's worth it
For even one day
For even one day
Just to feel that way
Just to feel that way

Rainbow Home

When I moved in to a new place, other occupants were not around. So I took the opportunity to take pictures of the difference places in the house coz I was alone.

After compiling the pictures, I realized that I'm living in a rainbow home. Hmm... I would rather call it a house than home. :P

I think what prompted me to take some pictures are the different colors, though I didn't take notice of this peculiar thing until I loaded the pictures to my computer. hahaha....

What surprises me most is the color of my room, and some more it has flowers though it's fake... :P Seems not a room for me... hehehe... Anyway, I have to stay here otherwise I become homeless and stay under the bridge....

Just thinking...

Unexpected handshake!!!

Unexpected things really do happen!!

We have new bosses in the company, and one is very active and hands-on approach. He asked a lot of questions, and seems like getting into the nerves of the employees. First, he called for general meeting and discuss his policies/principles in running the company. Then he called each employee to talk one-on-one.

So I had my turn to talk to him, and we're discussing a lot of things. He had a lot of questions obviously he got some on-hand information from other people. When a person starts to ask specific questions, then you might as well be frank as you can be, and foremost be yourself. State the facts accurately, and give some ideas that you think may help.

"Can I shake your hand?" he asked after our long discussion. We shook hands, of course!!! But I really didn't expect a handshake from him.

Hmm... I'm still wondering what that action means...

Lesson: Expect the unexpected!!!

There's always a first!

Is it left unlocked?! Not exactly.

I locked the door through the door knob, however, the padlock is nowhere to be found.

I called my colleague asking about the padlock, and she said it's inside her office and already on the way back home on board a bus. So, I had to leave the door without the padlock.

I was just surprised that it happened after so many years working here. Is it because the person is so stressed, and she forgot to put back the padlock after opening the door this morning? Or is it due to forgetfulness? Or is it something else?

Whatever the reason, there's always a first!!!

Unsolicited information

It's heart-warming to know that you may have unwittingly helped others in some ways, or let other people see a different perspective in life. Or you may have comforted them without trying not knowing that they may have troubles.

It's a bit surprising when people give you some information unsolicited. Some will tell you that they may want to do major things in life, yet you are the first person to be told of such information. You haven't even seen their faces, and yet they would tell you such information with ease and comfort.

Some can even tell you details on why they feel comfortable telling information that are only afforded to a close friend. Usually we refer a close friend for someone we know for quite sometime and can confide with, and can be a company to find comfort.

You would feel oblige to keep the information confidential coz you were privileged to know. Though there are times you will feel pressure when other people ask for contact numbers or msn address or some other stuff, and you were told to keep information to yourself... hmm...

And you may wonder why people ask if something has gone wrong with you when you don't even ask or tell. Somehow, others can sense that you were bothered or troubled. Such gesture is highly appreciated and can give some comfort.

Telling unsolicited information (confidential/personal???) to someone breaks down the barrier to make people comfortable to each other.

Lesson: Reap what you sow.

Is T3, Rise of the Machines, coming to reality?

T3 is the abbreviation for Terminator 3, the Rise of the Machines. It was a science fiction movie depicting robots that were programmed and can think of its own. These machines were not just robots, but were strong and thinking machines.

This information age you can read a lot of articles about robots and its applications. Robotics had been used for quite sometime now, and are heavily used in mass production of things and even as toys. Its main purpose is for automation.

For the past few years, a lot of scientists are researching and designing robots that may someday replace human beings doing routine tasks. It seems that scientists and researchers have made a good progress in this field.

When I was still in the university studying engineering, in the lab there's a robotic arm which can be commanded to pick up a ball from one point to the other. It can't do more than that task.

One aspect to realise T3 machines is to make robots more agile like human beings flexing a muscle. Humanoid robots and related-works keep researchers and academics busy to achieve human movement.

For starters, prosthesis are now widely used to replace human body parts like arms and legs. Though these are not flexible like muscles, but it means that mechanical parts can be attached to human body to be used as replacement. Heart pacer is a good example that is "actively" helping a person. There's even a device used to monitor a person's heart, though it failed to impress FDA in the US.

Recently, there's a humanoid robot which teaches itself to walk and may eventually run. More and more robots were designed to replace people especially for dangerous tasks like in the battlefield.

Realization of T3-like machines, or I Robots that have emotions yet still to come but dilemma may have already started. At least some people are thinking of future problems that may arise when humanoids co-exists with people.

Humanoids may still be a long way to reality, but there are people who always work to achieve such goal.

What will the world be like when humanoids interacting with real people? Will the world be a better place? Or will people become extinct? hahaha... Just wondering...

Rant: Maybe the stupidest call I ever received

I don't know how many stupid people out there who's been using computers and printers everyday to do their daily job, and yet still very stupid not knowing how to power on the printer when it's being switched off by someone else! Even when instructed where to find the switch still got difficulty switching on the device.

Worse this guy calling the hotline and get angry for not able to switch on the device himself!!! Very disgusting behavior.

I just hope that the number of these people are very few.

Purpose of Blogging

People write blogs to express themselves or record events that they may want to share with other people. Bloggers choose the theme of their particular blog, or just write anything that come into their mind and think that it's worth publishing.

Businesses hire people to write blogs about their company and products or even have their own blogs to promote and advertise.

Journalists usually write about news or commentaries on anything. But nowadays, anyone can write commentaries on anything by way of blogging. So, most bloggers can be regarded as journalists-wanna-be.

But even in blogosphere it can turn nasty though you think you are quite safe at your own room typing your write-ups online. At least you're away from other people and can't be harmed physically. However, others can harm you psychologically.

I'm talking about the latest news about a blogger who received death threats. According to the news, her case is not an isolated incident.

Blogging application has features to solicit or get comments from the readers anonymously. This is a good facility such that there will be an interaction with people reading your blog, and they can write some criticisms/feedback when necessary. But such facility is also abused by other people for some reasons.

So as a rule of the thumb, if you do write blogs especially criticizing others you might as well be as anonymous as possible. Also, disable the comment feature of your blog. In this way, the communication will be one way which people can only read your blogs, but they won't be able to feedback about your write-ups.

Is there a Ghost???

(Please keep it to yourself if you know the location that I'm referring to... Hope you understand what I mean.. :D)

Do ghosts really exists? Last year, we experienced an eerie feeling when entering one of the rooms in the building. It's quite difficult to describe that feeling, but for sure it's sort of your hair will really stand... :P

Recently they told me that they heard a crying baby in the office area. I took a picture in the questionable area after an office hour out of curiosity and see if something comes up.

I showed the photo in my cellphone to a friend, and he told me that it seems the shape formed to a thing that we're looking for.

I decided to load the photo to my computer to analyze further coz it could be that we were seeing things in the picture that we would like to see.


My conclusion??? It's not a ghost!!!! hahaha

See the enlarged picture... :P

Lesson: See the facts, and not things that you want to see.

Breath (2AM) - Anna Nalick

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

I Just Died in Your Arms Tonite (Cutting Crew)

Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must have been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight

I keep looking for something I can't get
Broken hearts, they're all around me
And I don't see an easier way, to get out of this
Her diary sits by the bedside table
The curtains are closed, the cat's in the cradle
Who would have thought that a boy like me could come to this

Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must have been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must have been some kind of kiss
I should have walked away
I should have walked away

Is there any just cause for feeling like this?
On the surface I'm a name on a list
I try to be discreet, but then blow it again
I've lost and found it's my final mistake
She's loving by proxy, no give and all take
'Cause I've been thrilled to fantasy, one too many times

Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must have been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must have been some kind of kiss
I should have walked away
I should have walked away

It was a long hot night, she made it easy
She made it feel right
But now it's over, the moment has gone
I followed my hands to my head, I know I was wrong

Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must have been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must have been some kind of kiss
I should have walked away
I should have walked away

Different (Acceptance)

Tell myself, on the ride home.
Getting tired, hating all I've known.
Holding on, like it's all I have.
Count me out, when it's clear that I, find it hard to say.
And you, find it hard to care.

I wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me.
Wanted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me.

Got this way, upfront but never true.
God I'm wrong, it's just the way I am.
Crashing down, any chance you hear.
Caving in, any chance that you, could see inside of me.
And I, I'll know what to say, It's fine.
This isn't Hollywood.
So fine, getting in your way.

I wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me.
Wanted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me.

I'm taking a chance, this could be different.
This could be all I'm waiting for.
Taking a chance, this could be different.
This could be all I'm waiting for.

I wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me.
Wanted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me.

Something that's different (something that's different)

Avoiding Meetings???

I was wondering why some people are very eager to arrange for a meeting to discuss on outstanding issues, postpone it twice then chicken out when the actual meeting date comes.

I tried to explain all the pros and cons of postponing the meeting again, yet all I can get is another person sent for the meeting unprepared! Asking for reasons yielded nothing, but unacceptable reason as unavailable.

There are only few valid reasons that I can think of why the person did so: the person is irresponsible, don't know anything on the subject matter or avoid losing face.

Whatever the real reason, bottom line is that the other party expecting in the meeting will be disappointed and will lose faith of the party in question.

Lesson: Do your homework.

Very busy and No Accomplishment???

I find myself very busy for the past few days and really exhausted, but seems there was no accomplishment at all! What was wrong?!!!

I just realized that I was trying to look for a 100K figure in the report which the users told me that they can't find it out. It's baffling coz all the figures were coming from the same system for consolidation, but users produced two reports with different formats.

I wasted more than five bloody days to figure it out. The reason I had deviated from the original design was due to overwhelming information given to me. It seems I absorbed all the information, but forgotten to relate those information from the report that was to do the reconciliation.

After reviewing all the information, I found out that the reconciliation report was correct but interpreted by users as they saw it fit!!!

It took only about an hour to convince them that the report was correct, unfortunately I already wasted my time. Sigh...

Lesson: Don't lose your target/goal.

Another You (Cascada)

So many times I was alone I couldn't sleep
You left me drowning in the tears of memory
And ever since you've gone, I found it hard to breathe
Cause there was so much that your heart just couldn't see
A thousand wasted dreams rolling off my eyes
But time's been healing me and I say goodbye

Cause I can breathe again, dream again
I'll be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now I feel free again, so innocent
Cause someone makes me whole again for sure
I'll find another you

Could you imagine someone else is by my side
I've been afraid he couldn't keep myself from falling
My heart was always searching for a place to hide
Could not await the dawn to bring another day
Your not the only one so hear me when I say
The thoughts of you that just fade away

Cause I can breathe again, dream again
I'll be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now I feel free again, so innocent
Cause someone makes me whole again for sure
I'll find another you

Sometimes I see you when I close my eyes
You're still apart of my life

But I can breathe again, dream again
I'll be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now I feel free again, so innocent
Cause someone makes me whole again for sure
I'll find another you
I'll find another you

Literally soaked

When was the last time you got soaked in the rain?

Most of us don't like to go out when it's raining coz we don't like getting wet. When we go out during rainy days, we always bring umbrella or wear a jacket to protect us from the elements.

I went out cycling last weekend, and suddenly it rained. There was no shelter in a stretch of a kilometer, and I was literally soaked. Reaching the shelter, I realized that a lot of people and bikers were already in the shelter and there's no more room to squeeze in.

There was actually a limited space, but you will still get wet coz it was unusually heavy downpour. I decided to continue cycling coz there's no point stopping coz I'll get wet anyway.

Getting soaked in the rain reminded me of childhood days when you played outside while it keeps on raining. Going back home, taking hot bath and getting a warm dry clothes feels really good.

hmmm... What a refreshing feeling...

I Love You Goodbye (Nina)

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye

The Transporter Lesson

It was a movie about a contract courier to pick up a particular package and deliver to a specified location. He had certain specified rules to do the job. For the first time, he opened the package which he's arranged to deliver, and found out that it's a lady inside the bag. After doing so, his life's situation turned upside down.

By opening the package, he eventually broke one of his own rules.

Accordingly, each one of us has rules of our own. Breaking our own rules may bring some upheavals and changes the course of our lives. It may be good or bad.

But do we always follow our own rules? Or, do we break it?

Virtual Holiday

Is there a virtual holiday?

A quick check with google, and amazingly there are a lot of places to go to virtually. hahaha... I'm thinking of a different virtual holiday... :P

I think it would be nice to take time off from online activities , and I mean it. That includes email activities, though it would be impossible to do that given the nature of my job. Hopefully there's not much messages coming to the inbox, otherwise temptation will be very strong.

I'll try to impose my will to be on virtual holiday as much as possible, and as long as I can. There's a lot of online activities that I may miss though. :(

oops....

I may exclude the blogging and reading of news from this holiday, otherwise if I get bored what else I'm gonna do?

If there's a will, there's a way...

You Can't Teach an Old Dog a New Trick

This is a hard-hitting and very good idiom. Often, people get offended hearing this idiomatic expression especially if they know what message you're trying to send across.

We always thought we're referring to older people than we are!!! Wrong!

Actually this is applicable to people that insists their way on doing things, and don't want to accept new ideas. Not accepting your ideas would be nice, because this is a free world. But if people keep on nagging about your idea on how to resolve a problem, you keep giving advise and yet they still keep on doing it their way that doesn't work, then that will really pissed you off.

It doesn't mean that you want to impose your idea on them. We have to look at the bottom line, resolve the issue on hand.

Rant: Indecisive and Skeptical people

It's very frustrating to have indecisive and skeptical people around. You can feed all information they want, and discuss all pros and cons on things but they can only go on to that point.

They can even discuss on things that they thought they were expert and learned, but when crunch time comes and decision has to be handed, even a simple suggestion on which way to go is never done.

Whatever you gonna say, they will go for it for they think you will be right! Very irresponsible act!!!! They can argue for as long as they wanted, but in the end they just fold, and they can't hold their fort!!!

These are worthless people!!!

Hurt (Christina Aguilera)

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Someday I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I want to do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so I'm afraid to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

How To Save a Life (Fray)

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

What's in a song?

Song is a way of expressing oneself.

Singer/composer expresses what he felt at that particular moment through song. The melody gives life of that expression.

The listener of the music expresses himself on through songs and melodies that he heard. The kind of music the person listens in a particular time usually matches in his current mood.

I was surprised on the feedback and comments from those who read my blog. Btw, these were verbal feedback... :P Unwittingly, I may have expressed myself by just publishing songs that I like. Old or new songs played online or through radio, but somehow I kind of like it and ride with the music most probably will find a place in this blog.

Each person may have particular music as a theme song especially the ones that may strongly express of himself (struck to the core???).

Maybe I'll write about the song that struck me most...

hmmm... Let me think about it...

Time (Korean Movie)

It's about a woman who underwent extensive plastic surgery to save a relationship she thought was slowly dying, and that love was merely to please each one.

Low self-esteem and self-confidence caused her to get envy and jealous. But it's her inferiority complex that drove her to solve the "problem" and did the unthinkable, that was to change her face.

It was plastic surgery that she thought will solve the relationship issue, but eventually it's the cause of its destruction.

What a tragic ending...

Politics???

It's election year in my home country, and all politicians are trying to get all the resources and help to win.

My friend told me few weeks back that she was lured to get into politics. Though she wanted to help people in need through politics, but her husband prevented her from doing so. Reason: politics is dirty!!!

Whether to join politics or not, we still discussed hypothetically if we were to join what can we do to resolve and improve the community. We agreed to think about it, and discuss next time. Unfortunately, we were very busy and not able to discuss on what we had agreed.

We only manage to say 'hello' or 'how are you doing?' from time to time, but not much discussion due to conflict of schedule or different time zones.

Recently, somebody asked me that if I were a leader, what steps can I suggest to resolve conflicts Asia.

hmmm... that me thinks!!!!

Any way this is my take on the question:

Asia's conflicts are mainly due to different ideologies, religion or poverty. These differences can only be solved through dialog and not through arm struggle. Singapore can be sighted as a good example in resolving conflicts. At it's infancy as a nation, riots occurred due to the main reasons stated.

1. Poverty. Equal distribution of wealth prevents some conflicts. Equal distribution doesn't mean that everyone get equal share of money or material things, but to let everyone live comfortably with basic needs like food, clothing and roof over the head. Government will help those that really in need, and encourage people to work and make a living. Also, government minimize bureaucracy to the lowest level to minimize corruption if not really eliminating it.

2. Religion. Different beliefs must respect, understand and tolerate each other's religion to avoid conflict. In Singapore, sometimes even rituals will be done in one location for all religion. With respect and understanding, nobody will assert that their belief is better than the others. At the end of the day, everybody is just praying to God.

3. Ideologies. Dialog, discussions and understanding must be done to avoid conflict. When people starts to assert that their ideology is better than the other, then conflict is most likely to occur.

Strong political leaders are needed to resolve or avoid conflicts, and bring the country/community to development.

Easier said than done!!!

The solution stated above are over simplified, and implementing such will be bumpy along the way for some reasons.